A Supernatural Venture, Part 02

Due to the inordinate length of the first segment of this story, I decided to complete a "Part 2." Here is the second half of my "supernatural venture." Make sure you've read the first half, "A Supernatural Venture."

Addition for Thursday

I left out an important final perspective from the Creation vision from Thursday. If we truly are vibrating at variable frequencies based on how attuned we are to the Creator, then we should also have a radius of influence on the vibrations of creatures around us. Therefore, if most of creation is "off-key," the conflicting frequencies should create a tremendous amount of interference, making it very difficult to "hear" the master tune. Seeing through the metaphoric language, this provides a potential theosophical rationalization for blaming humanity, and not God, for how difficult it currently is to find or hear God. For many years I have struggled with consolidating statements like "Seek and ye shall find," and "Ask and it shall be given you," and "My yoke is easy and my burden is light," with the utter chaos and confusion I see in Christianity and the world, as well as with the complete and utter lack of answers I seem to receive when I ask things of God. I am not saying that my problem here has been solved, simply that the vision provides a unique new rationalization candidate.

Saturday, the epic second half

The weather was absolutely spectacular, so we took a walk through the woods behind his house. After lingering a bit on some rocks in the middle of a small creek, we ventured up to the top of a hill that Josh was apparently fond of. We stood around awkwardly lacking ideas until he brought up Native Americans (not for the first time), trying to get me to inspect my "spiritual heritage" in my Native American blood (I have a little), and find what negative influences remain from that as well as what gifting I have from it. I told him I could not just decide to do so and have an InstaVision©. He decided to ask the Holy Spirit to come and fill a particular location. I closed my eyes, prayed, and tried to focus and be open to what came to my mind. I soon felt a strongly enhanced sensitivity to the metaphysical; definite energy surrounded. We talked a bit, but nothing exceptional happened. I then saw a blur moving from the "blessed" spot towards the house out of the corner of my eye. Immediately after, Josh said, "Well, I think we should head back to the house." I told him what I saw, and he said that while he's not a seer as much as a feeler (in NLP/psychology terminology, I'm visual and he's kinesthetic), he felt something identical at the same time. From his perspective, he just knows better how to recognize the leading of the Holy Spirit and is more prone to follow.

Interestingly, during the downhill walk back to the house, I noticed a somewhat dense fog surrounding us and the hilltop we had just left. I asked Josh about it, but he vehemently denied seeing any despite my asking at least 3 times. I had little choice but to conclude that the fog was at least in some part supernatural. I prayed to ask God what it meant, but I was unable to discern any particular answer. It seemed logical to think that it signified the exodus from a fog in my life/mind, but I cannot come to any solid conclusions about it. The fog was nonexistent by the time we reached his house.

We soon left for his church, Daystar, which was a good clip from his house. This was actually a prime reason I flew to Atlanta, as I have practically no opportunity to be surrounded by supernaturally-minded believers, and my curiosity was unable to avoid partaking any longer. The worship was very energy-charged with lots of motion and raised hands -- enough to cause most Baptists to run in fear. Here are a few things I noticed early on:

  • The congregation was impressively multi-cultural. While fundamentalists speak of being multi-cultural in doctrine, you will practically never find a fundamentalist church successful in bringing in a diversity of people. At Daystar, black, white, asian, and more were all present in excellent harmony. This to me was a profound rebuke to the vain claims of fundamentalists.
  • The congregation seemed truly focused on worshiping God. Few members, if any (other than myself), looked anywhere but the song leader, heavenward, or the floor in reverence. I detected no evidence of pride that would appear if one was being "showy" in his/her exaggerated worship except in one woman on the other side of the auditorium, but it was obviously just a suspicion.
  • I didn't see anybody else that appeared to be a visitor or outsider. Nobody raised a hand when the pastor asked for visitors (but then again, I was a visitor, and I didn't raise my hand). I offer no opinions on this; just an observation.

Once the actual sermon began, the pastor, Johnny Enlow, spoke of a developing "Elijah revival" in Atlanta, with some roots supposedly in Daystar. I am not terribly fond of that flavor of message; they are all too frequent in the prophetic circles with little to no external evidence of said revivals actually taking place. However, he presented the best synopsis of the idea that Moses and Elijah could be the two witnesses in Revelation that I have ever heard; if you're interested, the message will probably be available on the Daystar sermon collection -- look for December 16th, 2006. I soon grew tired of the revival talk and pulled Josh out of the message long enough to grab some of their Starbucks-branded coffee (impressive for a smaller church, although it had grounds floating in it).

When we returned, the theoretical side of the sermon was dying down and Johnny was moving into personal application (which is what I was primarily interested in). He mentioned several topics that are highly relevant to me, including: frustration with intellectually-focused theologies of the modern conservative church, feeling a need for a truly personal walk with God, and having actual spiritual/supernatural experiences. His wife actually spoke for a few minutes about her first heavily supernatural encounters with the Holy Spirit. They were relatively dramatic, as they included borderline physical manifestation symptoms. When Johnny took back over, he called up the various ministry teams of the church and began to bring the message to a close. The musicians began playing again, and a phenomenal energy started to build. The excitement in his voice rose, congregation members shuffled anxiously in their seats, and everyone but me seemed to know what type of thing would happen next. He explained that they would move around and "pray over" various members of the congregation for the Lord to bless us in whatever way He chose.

At this point I had to make a choice about how to behave, and I decided that the only way to make my trip worth it would be to "go with the flow" for the next hour or 2 and be very open to try new things. I put my head down and started to pray as the team members spread out ministering to others in the room. Soon a man came and put his hand on my shoulder ("laying on of hands" if you're not very familiar with Bible terminology) and prayed mainly for the Spirit to fill me. As soon as he touched me, I felt a strong buzz-like vibration in the spot he was touching, and my mind really started racing. I prayed hard for God to make His presence known and show me whatever I needed to see. At that moment I felt a presence behind me and to my left, so I looked over my left shoulder to see Johnny Enlow looking directly at me as he prayed over another individual. I knew he was coming to me next, so I bowed my head again and prayed, this time with a confident approximation of faith that God would answer some of my questions.

When Johnny came up to the back of my chair, he somewhat surprised me by putting his hands on either side of my head, cupping my ears in a sense. I felt a tremendous amount of energy rushing through me. With my eyes closed, I looked very hard to see what God was showing me, but I could not perceive anything. Johnny, knowing very little from Josh about my situation, began to pray with "prophetic words" (this circle really has their own set of terminology) for me. Interestingly enough, he began to pray specifically for several pertinent topics:

  • He informed me that my "cloud of confusion" and "spiritual fog" would soon be cleared up.
  • He assured me that I would experience the love of Christ.
  • He asserted I would definitely find the answers I had been seeking.
  • He asked God to give me supernatural encounters.

He didn't pray for healing, or my family, or my faith, or my finances, or any of the more generic topics you would expect, although the 2nd and 3rd bullets above are quite generic and could apply to 75% of walk-in visitors.

As he continued to pray, I actually felt something seem to tug at my eyelids. While I was expecting to receive a supernatural vision with my eyes closed, I realized that my eyes were being pulled open. I maybe could have resisted only to find that it was a mere twitch, but remember, I had promised to "go with the flow." I opened my eyes and saw a slightly more obvious form of the layer of sparkly spots I had seen Thursday night (and was able to detect with relative ease on a whim), this time covering the floor and almost appearing to fill the room very subtly. I stared at this haze on the floor and soon saw an arrow pointing to my left. I looked left, and an older gentleman was staring at me. In some way I was confident that he was praying for me and wanted to reassure me. I smiled and nodded and looked back at the floor. I saw another arrow pointing to the other side of the room. At the moment I looked that way, the woman my eyes fell on (the woman I earlier suspected of contrived enthusiasm) jumped up and screamed, apparently feeling overwhelmed by the Holy Spirit. Normally I am very suspicious of such chaotic reactions, as they do not seem to have any relevance to or support in Scripture, but the timing was good enough with my arrow that I decided just to go with it again. I looked down again and saw a smiley face (yes, like a cheesy emoticon). Then I suddenly felt that I was being told, "See, now you know how to see."

I immediately went into a reverie. If this was true, and it was truly this easy to see messages from God, why could I not discover it sooner? It's not like I haven't spent hundreds to thousands of hours experimenting with meditation and visions. Or why did no other Christians teach me sooner? I had, and have, a large number of objections to accepting that just looking into a sparkly haze to see God is all it takes for me. However, such doubts are clearly not good portals to a life of faith, and I was in my hour of flow-going, so I determined to save such speculation for later and put strong confidence in the Divine origin of the current imagery. I can be very flexible when I so desire (how else does one of very recent hyper-conservative Baptist fundamentalist upbringing tamper with the occult in his search for the same God and still sleep at night?), and I exercised it fully that night.

Soon after Johnny moved on to pray for someone else. I did not hear the last few things he prayed about, but I doubt I missed anything life-changing: if God was directing the circumstances, He would not "point" me away from hearing something profitable. I continued to look into the sparkles, but nothing really stood out until the next lady came to the back of my chair and prayed over me (on the third prayer minister at this point). She also had "prophetic words" for me, although depending on your use of modern church terminology, hers were probably more like "words of encouragement." They were definitely less specific and powerful than Johnny's, but they seemed every bit as sincere. It seemed to me that she was just less gifted in "the prophetic" than Johnny, but still able to deliver supernatural assistance in the form of enlightened encouragement. She mentioned a few miscellaneous subjects, the most specific of which was an eventual way for me to reach my family with the truth (if I personally ever even find what I'm looking sure, I have no idea if I'll feel like trying to convince my family of it). As she laid her hand on my shoulder, I again felt the strong vibratory rush, less potent than Johnny's, but stronger than the first fellow's. She next predicted that I would know the love of Christ, and at that moment something interesting happened. I felt my eyes being tugged open again, and as I opened them, I perceived 3 diagonal marks on the back of the chair in front of me. I had not noticed them earlier; they had a similar texture to a pencil eraser rubbed across a vinyl surface. As I looked at them, they strongly appeared like whip-lashes on someone's back, and I was instantly vaulted into a lucid vision of Christ's crucifixion.

At first I saw His back being torn open by the scourge, and I experienced an impressive amount of atmospheric detail in the scene (vivid colors, moving backgrounds including onlookers, auditory ambience, energy in the air, warm temperature). I was somewhat surprised by what happened next: I was promptly placed in the position of the Roman delivering the punishment, and I personally cracked the whip into Christ's back. I was made to experience this for at least 30 seconds before the scene faded, and I immediately knew what it meant: I was in some way responsible for my current state, and Christ underwent his experiences specifically out of the profound love of God. I felt God communicating something like, "This is one aspect of My Love for you." As I realized I was learning a lesson in God's love, and one of my recent questions was being answered in such a profound way, I was actually consumed with emotion, and some tears came to my eyes. The lady soon left and I stared at the ground for a while.

A few minutes later some friends of Josh walked up and we started to chitchat, until one of them became the fourth volunteer as he asked if he could pray for me. I felt another small rush of energy as he put his hand on my shoulder, and he prayed for pretty generic encouragement and spiritual success on my behalf. It was short but left me with a very positive, optimistic feeling about the night.

We stayed and talked for a while and I noticed that Josh's family had already left for home. We accompanied a group of church members to a nearby Thai restaurant. It was excellent; I had never eaten Thai before, and I was impressed with whatever you call the little pasty red sauce that is extremely spicy. All in all, it was a relaxing to end the eventful evening. On a side note, I noticed that several church members ordered what appeared to be frozen daiquiris, which actually reassured me slightly about their open-mindedness (the pastor was at the same table and didn't seem to care in the least).


Nothing notable happened on Sunday; Josh worked quite a bit and I sat around and stewed over what had happened. Late that night I filled him in on what all had happened the night before from my perspective.


We really didn't do very much on Monday other than one mission. He had a guy at work that was depressed and asking him for advice, and Josh invited him to do something. While we waited for him to call, we prayed for God to tell us what to do. In the meantime we went to the mall and killed time. While we waited for his family to show up with the ride home, I prayed hard for God to show me what we should do. I felt led to walk towards the nearby golf and tennis shop, so we putt-putted on their sample green for a while. As I prayed asking for leading, I saw fish swimming around. I mentioned it to Josh, and we kept praying. Next I saw doors. I took this to mean that we should walk outside and continue. Outside, I saw a very large number of sparklies reflecting off of the concrete sidewalk. I suddenly felt it was pointing me towards the stars, so I looked up at the sky, but I couldn't see any stars. I somehow knew that if we could find the only visible star, it would be in the direction we should walk. I mentioned this to Josh, and he spotted the only visible star (there was exactly one, as I hoped/expected). We walked that way, and it took us to the remains of a very eery former forest. The trees were sickly and mostly destroyed. Oddly enough, a large number of them had been warped years ago in the exact same way, causing their trunks to all point in one direction. It was pointing at a bar/pool hall. We both mentioned wanting to play pool, but we wanted to follow God's leading. A few minutes later it hit us that the trees were actually pointing at the bar/pool hall, and the fish swimming in water could signify being "fishers of men" as well as the reference to water (bit of a stretch, but just go with it). We went inside, but it felt pretty wrong to both of us, so we left. Nothing else notable happened, and we were both somewhat discouraged at the seeming lack of results. Then something rather cool happened: Josh got the anticipated call from his coworker, who wanted us to go play pool with him that night! I was encouraged by this, and Josh seemed pleased as well. In the end, we had fun at the pool hall, and Josh got to know his coworker better. It was a good end to the trip.


This was a profound trip for me, and I am still going over the events in my mind. I am sure more revelations are on their way, so check in at adamia to see the progress!


Mephistopheles...and other things

Reading this account of a man's struggle to know God was very inspiring. I would love to hear the conclusion of the matter, as well as any subsequent endeavors.

I think part of your controversy deciding from whom the visions originated stems from your ultra-conservative roots. You have been taught that visions are strictly demonic in this "dispensation." If you ask the Spirit to protect you from demonic visions, then you can have confidence that your visions are coming from God.


The origins

Good point; another factor in the difficulty of the decision is that if I do decide that this was of God, then it will ultimately require me to give up other beliefs that I will not give up until I'm completely sure what is of God and what isn't.

a d a m

A backward glance

Perhaps total credence will come only after giving up those beliefs?

Maybe God is requiring a step of faith in order to grow your faith (pardon the quasi cliché).


hell bent

the jews are GODS and the jews are the americans and the anglos coming from England from Europe and from the isles round about there(The History of Gods people,by David J. Smith)< this is where I first learned this many years ago(states many facts that are backed up). As for me, the new covenant was made by GOD and through Jesus,these are the rules: For anyone who believes in his son as the christ they shall be saved. Correct? Then I have been illuminated(like Eve in the garden of Eden) by the angel of light and I have to say that I no longer believe in the Jesus being the christ,because I am not a jew, therefore me and many others as myself have decided that we would not be saved so it behooves us to enjoy much of life to its fullest as we may see this as our only chance to enjoy a heaven, since God does not SACRIFICE us,but merely ignores us.He does not see us. We are like dirt,he walks on us,and we do not cross his mind. If you look at Matthew 15:21 to 28 you can see how we do not exist, (NIV version bible) Leaving that place,Jesus withdrew to the region of Tyre and Sidon.A Canaanite woman(gentile) from that vicinity came to him,crying out(like me) Lord, Son of David, have mercy on me! My daughter is suffering terribly from demon possession. JESUS DID NOT ANSWER A WORD.(Like he's done to me)So his disciples came to him and urged him, send her away, for she keeps crying out after us. He answered, "I WAS SENT ONLY TO THE LOST SHEEP OF ISRAEL." (this is Jesus the Christ saying this of his father the GOD of creation,he clearly states his purpose for coming to this planet) He goes on later even to refer to us as dogs, and yes he answered her request, but I think only to clarify and to state his true purpose.(I have many other claims,but not enough time now)The disciples are the ones that later go on to include others and gentiles into their mix. I believe only to strenghten their own agenda.I have friends who are Jewish and I believe they are good people, but I also believe that many Jewish leaders are still using that power that god has given them to keep themselves in positions of power.Also the lost sheep he is referring to is you, and people like you who do not know what an incredible GOD has in store for you. Many blessing are in store for you,if you simply acknowledge him, for he knows you and cares for you, he will love you for eternity.Me he does like Jesus did the Canaanite woman, he ignores me.Therefore I must go out and seek my comfort in the only other superpower that I know exists.As for my endeavors with SATAN, no on all counts.With me it has truly been a spiritual awakening like I have never had before, I see things now as if a bright light turned on in my head,The downside to this is that he is on a different frequency. I think you wrote somewhere about frequency,so you might get this.The downside is that satan is negative and I have been raised to be positive.So I feel myself clashing with his genius and I understand that he is only trying to strenghten me further, but I am slowly learning to hate and to hurt others(I am converting frequencys) and to do as my father instructs me to do. What doesn't kill me truly does make me stronger and I see it in action every day.I also have a covenant because in my pain and anguish I called on satan the power of force and strength and he did alleviate my pain by instructing me as to what to do.Through his knowledge that he also gained by being cast down and brought to his present existence,he shares this with me.Also there is evidence that he has heard my prayers. Even to the point of supernatural occurence. I must go for now, I hope you do not permanently eradicate your doubts,because then you will become like the 99.9% of Christianity. If you decide to be a Christian be one of 100% that way GOD can and WILL be on your side, just don't pray to cancel me out at least not till i'm much older.


Out of curiosity, when you said "negative" with "frequency" as well as "cancel[ing] out," do you mean in the sense of a negative wave whose peaks are the troughs of the Creators' and vice versa? As if Satan's tune is played in such a tone as to cancel out the wave pattern of the Creator. I'm not sure if you were trying to imply that or not, but it's a very interesting thought; I will have to think more about that. If that was not what you mean, what did you mean by "negative"? In light of such beliefs as Yin/Yang, Nirvana, and other morally relativistic views, "negative" could mean a wide variety of things.

In regards to the Christ-as-Jew topic, I am still looking into this. I must admit I had never heard it presented in an intelligible way, and even as I google I have a hard time finding legible articles on the subject. Do you know of a good site that talks about it? So far the biggest reservations I have on the subject pertain to Mark's account of the same encounter (Mark 7) where the language seems to indicate that the time of the Gentiles simply had not come yet. This of course then causes me to think of the "great commision" where Christ Himself commanded the apostles to go into "all the world" which, when taken at face value, seems to have no indication of just referring to the Jews, and this could possibly start the time of the Gentiles. Overall, I'm not totally decided on the subject yet, and I would love a good reference site where I could read more on the Jew-oriented approach.

a d a m

Four is the magic number

apparently anyway.

You know what struck me the most though about the whole venture? I guess I was ... surprised by how passionate an experience this was only to be broken up with these small passionless distractions. Starbucks? Chit chatting with friends moments after having so much to sit and meditate over? I just found myself more and more 'shocked' I guess is the word...especially after the revelation about conflicting frequencies. After you were shown that it's the disccordant things around you that are possibly keeping you from hearing God's message? And to top it off the vision of you as the Roman...that you are the one in your own way or "I was in some way responsible for my current state."

Above all I am impressed with the loving state of this experience. When we talked before, we were saying we weren't sure who was responsible. God or Satan? Had God at last answered? Or was something else so prevelant there that it was the only frequency that you could have possibly been on...and showing you it's enticing best to lure your weary mind. I'm almost leaning towards God being in the experience though because of the patience...the love...the way it was laid out for you.

If demons were involved would they have pointed the finger at yourself?


Well, you definitely did a good job summarizing several of the doubts that I have as I stew over what happened. Knowing how amazingly deceptive Satan and/or his minions are, being masters of lies, it would not surprise me at all if they would go so far as to teach me a deep spiritual lesson about humility just to convince me.

Right now the main Scripture I have in mind on the subject is Mark 3:23-30, which definitely puts some sort of limit on how much Satan will make short-term sacrifices for long-term goals.

a d a m

please keep an open mind im hell bound

why did you write all this are you another Christian trying to make a buck from this? or are you sincere in this? I was born in to this horrific religion and I got out! I have suffered so long always tried to do the right thing and love, it got me nowhere. I came to the realization after reading the bible that GOD cares ONLY for the JEWS and ANGLO JEWS that separated themselves from Judah.Look into this,with an open mind like you say in your story. I am gentile and I have turned my back on the GOD of the jews, but I do not disrespect or blaspheme because I have seen his power at work for his own, but not for people like me, we live in the highest poverty level in the USA and I know it's because we have no gods to ask for help, because they were systematically taken from us and we were made to speak your language and to deny the very gods of our forefathers. I have this to give as an example,last year(2006) I suffered much in many ways, I called out to your GOD and he was nowhere to be found, he does not know me despite the fact that I can pray for hours without end and cry my eyeballs out and ask for mercy. He didn't care,I followed every commandment and the one about love and loving your neighbor and all else.Nope,nada,nothing.Two months ago I might have just sent myself to hell,or perhaps I was already on my way there and I did'nt realize it,but I rejected that god,and gave my life to SATAN(since your speaking spiritual)he too is spiritual.Well i'm happy to say he does answer prayers and he is so much more willing to give you what you seek.He has blessed me with a new job with the highest pay that I have ever received with the phone company.I have also received a remarkable peace that I thought I could not accomplish in my life.People are so much nicer to me.I have had people be so respectful to me,when in the past these same people would have never acknowledged me and most were from the church where they so called are spiritual. Anyway thats what I want to relay over to you.I didn't have a good first 35 years serving that god, in the last 2 months I have learned so much more spiritually speaking and I have also gained in the material world.If you are anglo or a jew most likely that your god will twist and turn and do anything you ask of him, because ultimately he is GOD and I do not blaspheme or speak against him, I respect GOD! I truly do, but he does not know me or will ever know me, my destiny is hell and satan is the god that corresponds to us of the gentiles.You could do the other ethnics in your friends congregation a favor and tell them to get out of there and return to the idols and the worship of the other gods and satan as the head of them all, because he will answer and care for his own.I know that your GOD will answer all of your prayers and be there for you, but do not betray him because he will, I repeat HE WILL turn into a vengeful GOD and you will end up in hell with the rest of us and most likely it wont be to pretty for us and I promise you it wont be at all pretty for you because you have the opportunity to go on living in a beautiful non-chaotic and awesome environment with GOD the creator loving you,simply because you most likely come from the jews race even though you may say you have some native blood, I think it's not enough to be rejected by GOD that's why you get the whole god thing.He loves you and cares for you. Me, I wish I was jew or of anglo extension coming fron the sons of Aaron(look it up).Not the barbarians from german or russian descent coming from the mongoloids the easterners...everything I just talked about is supported by the HOLY BIBLE and also by other books of facts,if you are anglo most likely you will reject this entire letter and send it to the trash bin and chuck it up to just another lunatic on the net with nothing else to do.This is also spoken of in the HOLY BIBLE that you would do this.If so then good luck to you and Your GOD be with YOU! Oh yeah if you have doubts,ask someone in your church about predestination,and either watch them squirm uncomfortably and try and answer you or look at you with a blank stare,because they don't know what you are talking about. Look it up in your HOLY BIBLE it's plain.


I really think I am open-minded, or at least more so than 99.9% of Christianity. I appreciate your post; diametrically opposite perspectives are nearly always valuable to the perceptive and humble mind. I can very much relate to your struggle with begging, pleading, and crying, all without being heard (or at least without getting a valid response). That describes much of my life. However, the last few posts detail a recent turn of events that I am hoping will permanently contradict my doubts. I have not finished deciding what it all means, but I am trying to be optimistic. I have had many discussions in the past like the one you mentioned with respect to predestination. I have been down the intellectual theology debate road, and found it thoroughly vain and draining, hence my recent more desperate attempts to establish a connection with the supernatural.

I am very curious about the nature of your recent endeavors with the one you called SATAN. Is it primarily evocation? If so, do you primarily evoke lesser demons? Or are you strictly following a more primitive animistic system indigenous to another region, with the general understanding that they are demons of another name, serving the great Accuser?

Also, the main question I have about your specific response to my post is about the Jew-centric God. I have not gotten that impression as I've re-read the Scriptures several times with as open of a mindset as I can; I definitely can see potential evidence for that in the Old Testament, but Christ's new blood covenant in the New Testament seems to abolish that. You should find that I am very open, but I also ask for good support to a claim. What parts of Scripture lend support to the thought that God not only has a special plan for Jews (which is undeniable), but will sacrifice the Gentiles on the behalf of the Jews under the new covenant?

a d a m

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